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Self-Depricating Humor

Let’s talk about self-depricating humor. I am a huge implementer of this in my life and I always forget how toxic it can be. Sometimes I use it to get positive attention and sometimes I can’t accept that I actually am beautiful and good at things so I force myself to believe that I’m not.

Don’t trick yourself into doubting your self worth. Employ mind over matter. Instead of tearing yourself down, build yourself up. This is something I really need to work on this year and I want to dedicate 2019 to pushing myself toward a life of self-love and appreciation. If I can’t be my biggest supporter, I will not achieve the success I hope to gain when I graduate from college.IMG_1678.jpg

Body +

Love Yourself

Life is far too short to hate yourself. You can’t prosper and suck the marrow out of the bones of life if you aren’t willing to show yourself, especially your body, the love it deserves. If you have a problem, love yourself enough to fix it. If you think dropping a few pounds will make you feel better, find a way to become more active that will bring you joy. This doesn’t mean you can’t have a lazy day or pig out with your friends, but by loving your body in different ways, you can find the peace you need to love yourself the way you are meant to.IMG_3209

Theatre

The Hidden Mastermind

This picture was taken fight before my closing performance of The Cricible at DSU my sophomore year. As a stage manager, I am someone who stays hidden but has a massive role in the show. I am the person who is in charge of executing every light and sound cue, and scenic shift in a show. The show literally could not happen without a stage manager “calling” every cue. It is a job that requires a lot of determination, focus, and practice and it is a job I am so grateful to have. As I near the end of my collegiate career, I keep focusing on what’s to come and although I’m terrified, the excitement is going to make every trial and failure worth it.IMG_3208

Theatre

Stage Management

This was a defining moment in my stage management career. I’ve always felt that stage managers are the “batmen” of theatre. We wear all black, have gadgets at our disposal, and the audience never sees us unless something goes wrong. It can be a thankless job but I get to do so many cool and important things that the audience never sees. At this point in the play, characters were playing croquet and were hitting croquet balls offstage and I had to be there to catch them. My knees may have been a bit bruised from being smacked by heavy croquet balls but it was so worth it. I have never felt more content with a job than I do with stage management.

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DeSales University – Me and My Girl 2016

I have always loved Theatre and never knew that it would be such an exciting and crazy career to pursue. Stage managent has become my life and I couldn’t be happier!

 

If you don’t take a headset selfie, are you really a stage manager? Continue reading “Stage Management”

creativity

January 2019 Bullet Journal

Here’s the spread I’m working on for my January Bullet Journal. I’ve been thinking about what trackers would benefit me the most, so I decided to add them.

 

The first page in my spread is a small monthly calendar with some goals that I want to achieve for the month.

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Next, I have a spending log. I definitely struggle to be smart with my money when I get tempted by makeup, clothes, craft supplies, or going out with my friends. Having something to physically keep track of my money will hopefully force me to become the frugal person I need to be since I will be graduating in 5 months.

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Next, I have a massive habit log for the month. This includes cleaning, no caffeine, meditating, hydration, and many others. It’s a cute way to see what good habits I’ve been achieving in my day.

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Next is a gratitude log. I often harbor on the negative so much that I forget to appreciate the good in my day. At the bottom of the page, I wrote a quote that is very fitting for this spread. It says, ” A grateful heart is a magnet for miracles.”

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Next is blog ideas so I can keep track of everything I want to write about this month.

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And last but not least is my mood tracker. I had so many ideas for this (hence the many erase marks) but eventually settled on a cute doodle of a winter had with plenty of places to  track my moods with different colors that will showcase each emotion for the day. I struggle with anxiety, so this will be a great way for me to keep track of how I feel throughout the month.

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January BuJo 2019!

Getting a head start on my bullet journal planning for the new year! I’ll be implementing more trackers into my journal because those are what help me stay organized the most. I’m thinking putting trackers for sleep, exercise, water, stress, and who knows what else. Let me know if you have any cool suggestions!

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creativity

Costuming

A 1760s inspired gown built primarily by myself with a few others helping along the way.

Designer: Amy Best

First Hand: Caroline Sylvia

Actress: Mackenzie Moyer

If you had me sit down at a sewing machine 4 years ago, I would’ve had no idea where to start. Halfway through my junior year of college, I was tasked with creating this gown. It took a lot of patience and slow, stead work but I came through and I will always be proud of this piece.

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The Devil’s Disciple DeSales University 2018

 

Happy Halloween 2016!

My friends and I were talking for a while about how we wanted to cosplay as these characters and one day we threw caution into the wind and created these three costumes from scratch! My outfit includes a red cloak, bodice, orange flowing top, a plaid skirt and an apron over the skirt.

Winnie, I smell children!
Halloween 2016
MJ Bird as Winnifred Sanderson, myself as Mary Sanderson, and Alex DuBeck as Sarah Sanderson
Body +

Self Love

I was trying to take a cute selfie the other day in my super festive Snoopy Christmas pjs and I kept trying to controur my body in a way that would make me look thinner because I felt like my top made me look heavy. I wasn’t even thinking about what I was doing until I finally posted the picture and I was so frustrated with myself for putting so much focus on trying to make myself look thinner than I am. I need to stop trying to mold myself so I look what I think society thinks I should look like. I should love my body and work every look like the confident millenial I am.IMG_3158.jpg

Sometimes I look at this picture and the first thing I see is my arm and I feel so ashamed. I don’t think of the fact that I’m in a beautiful dress or that I’m spending the evening at a gala with the love of my life. I just see my arm and I assume that that’s the first thing everyone else will see. Not my smile, or my eyes, or my dress… My fat arm. There are a lot of things I wish I could change about my body and my arm “flub” is definitely towards the top of my list. But I need to remember that i can control things like this. First, I can control how I percieve my body and secondly, I can get active and take the necessary steps to get healthy and help myself become more comfortable with the parts of my body I feel the most insecure about.IMG_2283

March 2018

Sometimes I see pictures of myself and I can’t believe that that’s the way people see me. But then I see how happy I am in  pictures like this and I wonder why I would have negative thoughts about myself. It’s normal to be self-conscious but you have to remember that you are beautiful no matter what you look like. Don’t be your biggest critic. Be your biggest supporter.IMG_1490

November 2018

I’d be lying if I said I was totally happy with how my body looks. This is a journey that I have been on for a long time and who knows when or if it will end. I haven’t been thin since elementary school and I always assumed that being bigger meant that I wasn’t beautiful and that I wasn’t capable of being happy with the way I look but I’m slowly learning how to love myself even when I feel down. I was hesitant to post this picture because I saw so many “flaws” with my body but that’s what makes me who I am.IMG_2956.jpg

Opening night of my latest show.
Adorable cat shoes are from Modcloth.com

 

About me!

Tender Loving Caroline

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Welcome to my blog!

This is a place where I want to share my take on three of the most important things in my life: theatre, body positivity,  creativity, mental health and other things that make me happy. The name of this blog represents a feeling I want all who visit my blog to feel and it represents the kind of person I strive to be. For those who are new and returning, this blog was formerly named after a lyric in “Sweet Caroline”: “Good times never seem so good” because I wanted to share the good times in my life with all of you.

About me: My name is Caroline and I’m a recent graduate of DeSales University and I earned my bachelors in Theatre Design/Technology with a focus in stage management. I love theatre, body positivity, being creative, and advocating for mental health which is what I’m here to share. All of these things are connected to me and my life and it is important for me to have an outlet to express myself and my thoughts.